Family

Its been a while, sorry guys! Its all good, Im back in action. Just wanted to say a few things to my family....


This week's been a tough one. My health has seen some downs, but my spirit is kept up, only because of my family. First, to my sister... You have always been the only person in this world who "gets me". I dont have to say too much, & you already know. You are a star in my eyes. You give me so much strength, so much hope. I wish I could do the same things for you, I wish I could give you the entire universe, because you deserve it. You are my angel, my rock, my soul mate, my one true love. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I cant imagine anyone's life without you. You are amazing, & I love you so much. I admire you. You are certainly my hero.

To my brother... For years I said you & I would bond once you hit 15. I was right. To watch you grow up, from this miracle baby to the outstanding young man you are now, I am so honored. You were one of the first people to stay with me after the mess of what happened, and for the first time, you told me you loved me, and that you were here for me. Everytime I think of that I tear up. Because it fills my heart with an abundance of joy & love. You have such a bright path ahead of you, every opportunity is out there waiting for you to grab it. I know you have seen what your sisters have been through, & I know that you will be a good man, a great husband & an amazing father one day because of it. I am proud of you like no other. I love you dearly, & remember that you will always be the main man in my life.

To my father... My father. You are the most admirable person I have ever met. You came from nothing, and rose above the dirt & grime and became someone every person wants to be. I remember when I was young I talked about you like you were a superhero. And now that I am older, I realize, its because you always have been a superhero to me. You have always been the one to drop everything to rescue me, the one I went to to talk about boys & "why are they so stupid daddy??". You tell me all the time how valuable I am. & you've shown me what a man should be. If only I could be soo lucky to find a man like my father. I hope I do, because Daddy, you are the best superhero a girl could ask for.

And finally, to my mother... When you look at me, I see the sadness in your eyes. I see you wonder why must I go through all the pains I deal with? I see you thinking of how could you take all that pain away from me & make me your happy little girl again. I see your absolute unconditional love for me. And it has always been your face that I see when I feel completely broken & lost & so ready to end it all. Because I dont want to make you sad mami. I dont want to hurt you. I know how much you have gone through for all of us. I have always wanted to be just like you. You are the most amazing mother anyone could ever have. I want to be just like you Mami. One day. You make me want to live. You make me want to survive. You made me, so I must have some great purpose. I promise to fullfill it, whatever that may be. But I promise Mami, your love will make me your happy little girl again. I love you Mami.